...and her trials of dealing with a working mom

Monday, January 30, 2012

another day in the backseat

That's right... I spent my lunch napping in the backseat of my car again.  I was up til 1:30 finishing up cleaning the house.  We went out friday, on a date night.  It was only the second one since Ainsley has been born.  We may have done it up too much.  We were both really out of it on Saturday, so cleaning was put off until sunday.  I seriously cleaned for 14 hours.  This place was a disaster.  It was mainly from the dogs.  Dog hair EVERYWHERE!!!!!!  ugh.  Anyways, I'm tired.  Goodnight from a super tired workin mama....

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Oh.... look at me.

Yup, two post in a row.

I'm starting to get my days a little more sorted out.... I think.  I went and got my hair cut this evening and had a couple of inches taken off, so it should me quicker for me to dry in the mornings.  This was the first day in the last several that I didn't have to go out to my car at lunch and take a nap.  I'll count that as a win.  I'm posting on here tonight, and I managed to take a pic of my pumpkin when I got home.

It makes me sad that this is what I miss all day. But she is a cutie...

The doctor said she should start recognizing her name.  That might be true if we called her her name on a regular basis.  I call her Sweet Cheeks, pumpkin, sweetheart, roo...  The spousal unit calls her killer.  Yeah, I don't know either.  Anyone got any other good pet names? 

I'm still needing to fit in running and cleaning.  I also need to reevaluate my diet.  I cut out pops and juice.  I only drink coffee, water, tea and milk.  And I still haven't lost any more weight.  I have AT LEAST 10 lbs to loose.  I hate actually "dieting".  I try just to eat better.  Maybe I'll concentrate on not so many carbs, and more lean protein.  *ugh*

Monday, January 23, 2012

Working sucks!

I've neglected this blog.  The little time I do have now a days, I enjoy reading other people's blogs versus writing on my own.

Working and having enough energy to play with my daughter for the two short hours I get to see her awake every day is tough.  I honestly don't know if I can keep it up.  Here is what my days have been like the last week...
(she usually feeds around 3-4)
5am-wake up
between 5 am and 7:15
Nurse her one more time
get her bottles ready
pack bag with cloth diapers and wet bag
pull her food out of the freezer
shower, blow dry my hair, make-up (these seem like give me's, but when you stay home, you don't do these things on a regular basis)
Spousal unit takes Miss A to daycare

Work by 8 am
pump ~10 am
noon- quick bite at my desk, pump, and then short nap in my car
pump ~2 pm
Leave work at 5pm
Get to daycare north of town around 5:45 pm
Get home around 6:30 pm
She gets fed at 7 pm
Bath at 8 pm
Down for the night at 8:30
at night, pull dirty diapers, clothes and bottles out of her bag
do some laundry, make some dinner, repack her bag, try to pump one more time
In bed by 11-12 pm

I'm dying doing this routine.  And the money I'm making seems really hard to justify it.  I suppose there is nothing I can do about it right now, so I have to just go with it.  I'm also trying to fit some time in for my blogging every night, training for a 5k, and maybe even some occasional housework that needs to be done.  I have 100 lbs of dog in this house.  Not cleaning like I use to, there is dog hair EVERYWHERE!!  I don't get to spend much time with Ainsley.  I use to take at least one picture of her every day.  I haven't taken one since friday night.  I'm just missing so much.  It really makes me sad.  I think I'm going to give up on cooking and trying new recipes.  Tonight for dinner was a bowl of cereal after a lunch of frozen bean burrito...  *sigh*

Thursday, January 12, 2012

The ticking clock

Ugh.... four more days til I have to go back to work.  Every moment of my life seems fleeting and rushed right now.  I have so much stuff to do around the house, while trying to spend every precious moment playing with and enjoying my baby girl.  Today was a long day.  Had the foundation guy out, tried to get Miss A down for a nap that she wanted no part of, took a shower (which is a feat of itself), went to the grocery store, made the spousal unit cupcakes for his birthday, cooked dinner, made Ainsley baby food (sweet potatoes), bathed her, and got her to sleep.  Now I'm sitting here watching the daily show, drinking wine, reading blogs, and going and watching my baby sleep occasionally.  I'm not ready to leave her.  I should feel fortunate.  I was able to spend 6 months with her, which is more than most people get to spend. But I want to be with her all the time. 

Tick tock tick tock

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Bitter Sweet

So I haven't had much sleep lately, and getting ready to go back to work... I'm just generally exhausted.

I didn't get a chance to go through a bunch more diaper bags last night.  Maybe I'll stroll through a couple more pages tonight.

So yes, I have another job.  It's really bitter sweet however.  It's making less than I was at my last job.  16K in fact, which is quite painful.  It's actually making less than what I STARTED my last job at 5 years ago.  The more I sit here and think about it, the more frustrated I get.  I can't believe I'm leaving my baby for that kind of money.  But I feel like I didn't have much of a choice.  I told my spousal unit about the opportunity, and he's pretty hell bent on me working.  I do need health insurance, which is a nice perk of having a job.  Apparently gay couples can get insured, but couples living together and having a child together, but not legally bound in a marriage can't get eachother insurance.  Honestly, it's bullshit! So yes, I'm starting mid month.  I think I'm just going to sit here this evening and be depressed about the fact the babysitter will have ~8 hours with my baby, and I'll only have 4 hours a day to bond with her. 

Again....   I can't believe I'm leaving her for that kind of money....

Monday, January 2, 2012

blogs and so much more

I've been meaning to write for a couple of days now.  I have a lot on my mind and a lot of things I need to do and figure out.  Unfortunately, every time I log on to write, there are new blogs up that I follow that I have to read.  Then it turns into a rabbit hole, and I read all night instead of write.  Which is probably better for everyone involved...

Starting with today, and working backwards, we took down all the Christmas decorations.  It's kind of depressing.  I left the lights on the tree on all the time, so when I would get up to nurse Ainsley, we did it by the glow of the Christmas tree.  It was really nice.  We left them up as long as we did because we had a New Year's Eve party.  It wasn't anything too exciting.  It's honestly, really the first party I've ever thrown, so I learned a lot.  I made WAY too much food, bought too much alcohol, but didn't have any decorations or activities planned.  I guess now that we are true adults with jobs, the appeal of getting shit canned isn't really there anymore.  I didn't take any pictures of the festivities either, which is kinda sad.

Now to my issues.... 
1.)  I, not knowing, thought it would be nice to have the date and time on pictures, so we would know in the future when exactly it was taken.  Well, some of the pics we took over the holiday I'd really like to frame.  Well guess what... You can't remove the time stamp from the damn pictures.  So this is what we have...

and this...

Stupid date stamp.  I asked a friend who's good at photoshop to fix them for me.  She said "no problem".  Yeah, never heard anything about the pics once I sent them to her.  I might have to break down and buy my own copy of photoshop and try to do it myself.

2.)  Recently, I've noticed Miss A's diapers seem to have a strong odor of ammonia when I'm getting ready to wash them.  I just contributed it to her getting older and urinating more and maybe the chemistry of her pee changing (hell, I don't know.  I've never done this before...)  So, I was doing a second rinse cycle the other day of my cloth diapers, and when I opened the lid, this is what I saw.

I'm pretty sure a second rinse isn't suppose to by that sudsy.  So I ended up doing 4 additional rinses.  I guess I had some build up issues.  I hope doing a bunch of rinses will help.

3.)  I've decided I loath my diaper bag and need a new one.  I'll be going through etsy this evening looking for the perfect one.  Hopefully I'll have it narrowed down and pics up here by tomorrow.  So far we have

Ultimate Diaper Bag - XL convertible Paris red/orange/blue

MADE TO ORDER oversized diaper bag with beautiful floral print and sash woven through grommets

Extra Large Diaper Bag- Baby diaper bag- -Travel  bag- - Luggage- -  Design Your Own

The key here is size.  It needs to be big.  I cloth diaper, so those take up more room than disposable.  We seem to travel a lot too, so it needs to hold things to last at least an entire day. 

4.) New Year's resolutions.  We are still ironing out the details on this one.  I want them to be meaningful and obtainable for once.  We will see.

I'll end on this.  We started Ainsley on solids.  I really wanted to wait until she was 6 months old, but she has really been interested in my food lately, and I'd like to start her on this before I go back to work (more on this later).  So, I made her some oatmeal cereal that she HATED.  I'm not going to make her eat anything she doesn't like.  So I made her some carrots tonight, and she loved them!!